A Wrinkle In Time

When I was a girl I never gave the time of day to what it might be like growing older. Instead of watching time, it watched you , like a parent you were confident in it's clutches. If I only knew then what I know now, how would things be different? Perhaps if I saw my mom and dad as two struggling individuals who didn't really know what they were doing would I have resisted the urge to offer unsolicited advice. Would I have studied harder and married less :) The next thing you know your in your 20's having kids of your own and making more mistakes than your parents did. But there's still time to change and grow. Your face is radiant, your body strong and lean and you have energy to boot. The 30's and 40's are blurs. Your to busy watching your own children grow and become something and your still strong and not yet forgetting things. The only exception being the time you placed baby #5 in her seatie and forgot where you put her. :) Course I was in my 40's then. So fifty comes. If your a woman it's a time of great changes. People no longer call you Miss  but are now opening doors for you and calling you Mam. Your hair is grey and wrinkles are appearing. I once asked for some advice from a dear Shoppers Drug Mart  consultant. I was looking for Polyfiller. That's what I asked for.. He said "Mam, maybe you should embrace your wrinkles". It's only taken me 6 years to do so. It's a process you know.. Make up is amazing.. and hair dye.. But there comes a time when even the foundation isn't working and the dyed hair makes you look like a Bo Derek wanna be. I want to know if there's a manual out there that might help me to grow old gracefully. So far I've been fighting it tooth and nail. I'm trying to look at the positive. Take yesterday for instance. I asked a sales clerk if I qualified for the senior discount.. which I did. BONUS.. I don't have to waste 100's of dollars on anti aging serums that contain placenta/acai/jojoba/Q10 compounds. I can advice the youth and tell them stories of when I was a girl. I don't have to worry about men ogling me (not that is was much of a problem before) . I look forward to retirement and joining the Red Hat Club. Through out all I hope that I am reaching the mark. If I should live till I'm 90 it's not near the length of time that I will live in the glorious presence of my Heavenly Father. If I could change one thing, it would be to cease the striving. Perhaps the next 30 years might be spent resting in His love. After all He has never let me down. He was there when I fell off the swing, He was there when I screamed in the pain of my labors, He was there when a marriage failed and a new one began, He was there when I cried out to Jesus to be my Lord and Savior and He is with me always to the end of this great race. Adieu my friends and may every wrinkle you see on that face of yours remind you of years of growth and love.

Shark Attack

We just loved the movie "Soul Surfer". I suppose it's because it's based on a true story and the moral is uplifting about never giving up and being an over comer.. I had to get past a hurdle though. So God in his divine nature of love and justice designed this . Sometime ago before little Bethany was even born God planned for all of this to happen. Yes Bethany Hamilton, you would have this amazing life, living by the ocean with this super loving family,  until your 13th year. One day I will send a huge shark to bite off your arm. Two things that terrify me, amputation and sharks. It took me awhile to wrap this picture around my little brain. Obviously God had this wonderful plan for Bethany. His ways are not our ways.. Remember Jim Carrey in "God Almighty". He was given the powers of God and made quite a mess of things. God never makes a mess of anything.. Fast forward to 7 years ago.. All of a sudden a really bright and sweet child began blinking and making sounds. Her mind without warning would make her body do things and say things without any control. No movie is being made about this life. She just has to live it through. We can't wait to come out on the other side. Sometimes I need to see the answers to my questions like WHY LORD? Seems to me like we are swimming in shark infested waters daily.  Best to carry a phazer and own a life saving manual . I can hear the theme music from "Jaws" as I write.. Looking over my shoulder I'm assured that I'm safe. I don't want to lose my arm or any other body part for that matter.  Isn't it grand that the sharks of this world are still subject to that great Harbor Master. No limb was evcr severed except by God's devine plan.. His plan is always right and good. This morning it may be all I need to know to keep me going and going happily and securely.  Happy Trails until we meet again..